NORMAN, Okla. - Shock and sadness took over the last African-American OU SAE fraternity member after video of a racist chant surfaced.
He says this story has broken his heart, not only for him but also for his son.
"It felt like shock. I froze, my whole body tingled, my wife looked at me and you could tell instantly something was wrong," Will James an OU SAE alumni said.
Fourteen years ago, James says he became the last black member of SAE's chapter at OU.
"I'll never regret my time I had, I'll never regret the strides I made from being who I was," James said.
Strides James says were erased after video surfaced.
"I heard those chants and I saw my son and I knew there was no way," James says.
He remembers taking his son as a baby into the house, telling him one day he'd follow in his father's footsteps.
"There was one house I wanted him to join before and now there's one he can't, and that sucks, that's the worst for me," James says.
For James, shutting the doors at SAE goes beyond the surface.
"I was hurt. They directly hurt me. They should've known, they should know who I am, I'm around. I go to things, I'm not invisible, I am on the wall," James said.
Walls his son will never see.